Train of thoughts in the tunnel of darkness

No light in sight live for the night.(Not as in being Suicidical)

Woke up in the morning to another flare up a home.

Why wont they leave me alone Picking out my past evry chance they got.

Have become a moron trying to please them by living like they want me to.

Its not working its just not me i cant even recognise myself now from a year bac.

I guess its just a matter of time before i rebel again Woned when!!!!!!!!!!

Am at work listening to Ozzy.

Here is  the song that keeps humming in my head

Road To Nowhere Lyrics

[Ozzy Osbourne, Zakk Wylde, Randy Castillo]

I was looking back on my life
And all the things I've done to me
I'm still looking for the answers
I'm still searching for the key
The wreckage of my past keeps haunting me
It just won't leave me alone
I still find it all a mystery
Could it be a dream?
The Road To Nowhere leads to me
Through all the happiness and sorrow
I guess I'd do it all again
Live for today and not tomorrow
It's still the road that never ends
The wreckage of my past keeps haunting me
It just won't leave me alone

Here is how i feel after i changed my wild ways

My back against the wall

My life a sleepy crawl

Am on the outside

Trying to belong in

Am sitting here gazing at the computer letting my hands pen(key in) the virual  brochure for a market research report that i dont give the rats ass for. Ined to also write a press releas for this crap and wonder where this junk goes and who ever reads it. Am In an office of  people who just seem to have woken to  the many exciting possiblities in life while i have explored the hidden frontiers. I dontmean to scoff at them but when you have seen the highs and lows of life and been through the good bad and ugly side of life so early in life youstart to look back and get reflective and things dont excie you like they sed to before. You develop that  been there done that so what?atitude.

But then i shouldnt have been here in india espeecially atthis moronic office. Australia was th land i chose to examine and exhibit my talents. Iruined it all i guess! the scary part is that it was all because of her.
One girlruined me!!! Its hard to believe now but that shall remain the truth and it haunts and grips you in your every waking moment.

But then again i have learnt to never regret for what you have done its all an experience?
To get through this hell i promise myself that this lifeless crawl is just a passing phase and
I SHALL WALK THE WILD SIDE AGIN!